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Expecting enlightenment is yet another
ego-trip and, therefore, a trip in the wrong direction, that is, not in
the direction of the divine. Mind perpetuates its protective mechanism
through expectations. The simple practices are meant for melting the mind
into a dimension which is not within the constructions and calculations
of the mind. Then a situation of no-expectation arises with
its bliss of silence.
Kriya-Yoga is a journey towards no-mind, whereas expectation
strengthens the mind. And thus one remains where one is, just moving in
circles. Can mind see this mischief? Seeing is gathering of energy to
understand what is, by which one gets a glimpse of the otherness - the
overwhelming divinity. Seeking is the dissipation of energy and remaining
helplessly incarcerated within the separative consciousness of the mind.
Seeking is self-expansion through experiencing conditioned reflexes. But
seeing is self-realisation by the energy of emptiness and existence. Seeking
is the denial of seeing. Expectation is the destruction of Kriya-Yoga.
To watch without a watcher seeking, is to be truely religious. To be in
such choice less observation is to be a witness (Sakshi or (Drasta). It
is not to be a spectator (Darshak) who gets influenced or involved. It
is not to be an exhibit (Drishya) either demanding recognition as this
or that.
Sakshi Bhava, that is, the attitude of witness is pure consciousness (no-mind)
without the subconscious and unconscious and all the jejune jargons of
psychologists. The mind is fragmented consciousness and all its other
components which keep the psychologists in business. The knowledge that
you get about your minds activities from a psychologist, can never
free yourself from the maladies of the mind. You are mind. You are not
separate from mind. The freedom is not for you, but from you. And that
is the ending of all maladies and emergence of a free awareness which
is not of the mind.
You can not know about yourself from another, whatever may be his expertise.
You can not be a light to yourself if you are in the dark shadows of anothers
authority. Freedom is to be a light to oneself. This freedom is from dependency
and attachment, from the craving for experience, from the very structure
of thought. Expectations, conclusions, postulates, principles, isms, ideals,
are barren movement of thought and therefore cannot coexist with this
light. Seeing all this is Swadhyay (self-knowledge). You have to see,
not through the eyes of another. This is love, this is freedom.
OM Freedom OM
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